In the last week, my gran and aunty died. That's my dad's mum and sister. There are pretty much no words for these kinds of things, just that it's really sad. I've felt quite disconnected from my family, but have been sending out thoughts and love, and just thinking about the role these two women played in my life. It's been a weird series of thoughts - mainly focused on genetics, ancestors, and upbringings. Grief can take on all sorts of forms.